I have been feeling a lot of pressure and having to concentrate harder on keeping in alignment spiritually.... lots of panic and anxiety attacks and finally stopped and analyzed regarding my symptoms and what is going on with me..... my son's birthday is coming up, March 9th, and although I know that and it never leaves my mind.... I am looking at preparing myself for a very hard day. I wish to celebrate his birthday and I know how challenging it is going to be. He "rebirth" day is April 6th and I want to find a way that this can be peaceful and comforting throughout the years. This will be my first, the holidays were so hard and now another milestone.....I know if I keep settled at my core and celebrate the twenty-six years I had with him - that I will be able to maintain and not go into the terrifying Midnight that I know all too well.
I will be posting on "Memoirs With Jeremy", but just wanted to touch base on this blog.... it's sort of my sign post or street sign...... I will be spending my days in preparation and I pray that I make Jeremy proud of me and I know I will find something he will enjoy. He said to me on January 1st "let's start a clean slate with the new year and do it right".... meaning that there be more light than darkness...... it is his special day and I will listen intently and keep aligning my energy - I know I can do this - I now I can do this like a champion...... with Jeremy's helping hand and God's......
In love and understanding,
Sandra xx
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